Life Is But A Dream

Tuesday, April 21, 2015

"Married or unmarried, young or old, poet or worker, you are still a dreamer, and will one time know, and feel, that your life is but a dream." -Donald G. Mitchell



The kinds of dreams I had as a little girl started out as wanting to be a firefighter, a veterinarian, or the next president. The typical responses from any preschooler. Those are all very respectable career choices. And then through middle and high school I thought I may want to go to college, get a solid degree and head on down some kind of path that involved wearing amazing pantsuits, going to networking events and rolling in a fat paycheck.

Four years of college, 2 degree changes, and three months of actually working in my field (event planning), the view of my future changed. It's not who I wanted to be or what I wanted to do. I then turned an abrupt corner, taught preschool for 5 years and absolutely loved it. I loved it so much, but it wasn't my dream.

I knew I wanted to be a wife and a mother--and I was happy with that vision. To me, everything else didn't matter. My job was to raise a family. That's the job that I wanted. No degree or any amount of internship hours can ever prepare you for that.

Call me old school, call me old fashioned, call me freakin' crazy, but this is what I've always wanted; this is what I feel I was meant to do. I'm most definitely not the "career-woman" type and I'm not trying to be a CEO or aiming to be a billionaire.  I've just always wanted a household to run, children to raise, and a family and life that I helped build. Whenever I thought of my future, this is how I imagined it to be.

And here I am now. Am I "living the dream"? Sure. In a sense, yes. In between the crying, the messes, the sleepless nights, the failed dinners and dishes piling up everyday-- I guess you could say I'm living my own dream. But lately I'm starting to wonder if that's where my dreams begin and end. There are things I still want to accomplish and things I still want to experience.

I swear, I haven't hit my head and all of a sudden started pondering my future. I also don't plan on living life Duggar-style and just procreating for the rest of my childbearing years while trying to be Susie-Homemaker. I've just been daydreaming a lot lately about where I am today and what's next for me. I know there's more. I've wanted this for so long, I'm happy, but I know there's more.


 

2 comments:

  1. Just started back working a little part time this year. I needed the change and it was time to transition. I make nothing since it is mostly around my children's schedules, but I feel like I am doing something other than being at home.

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    1. I totally get that! Sometimes just a change in routine is good. Maybe we need to switch up our own routine...

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